Hello Yupi! Yes, that’s what the husband decided to call our little fetus – Yupi. You’re exactly 26 weeks old (that’s 6.5 months) now and looking strong. Hopefully, you will remain strong and grow healthily over the next 2-3 months.

I still can’t believe I am at where I am now. I mean, I’ve always said that I wanna try for a baby immediately after getting married and not wait – let nature takes its course. And nature did take its course – almost too soon. I was not too shock as we were on our honeymoon at my most fertile period. But I did have my reservations and not put too high hopes because God is all Planners, not us.

How I Found Out

A few days after we got back from my honeymoon, I experienced this excruciating lower back/joint pain – one I’ve never felt ever before. It suddenly started after lunch at work, very mild pain initially. It hurts with every turn & bend I made, but still bearable. It got worse that night to the point that I even needed help to turn around or sit up in bed. It continued hurting so damn much the day after – can’t even bend down or sit. Standing while doing my job was the only solution at that point. That pain slowly subsided 2 days later to just a very very mild lower back ache. At this point, my period was due about a week later. I also experienced some breast tenderness which is the only symptom I have before my period begins so at that point of time, it could be either way.

I tested that Sunday itself but obviously it was negative as it’s still way early. I waited till a day before I normally got my period to test again – this time, with my morning pee (3am to be exact – when I woke up in the middle of the night wanting to pee) and saw a faint line. Like all forums I’ve read, a faint positive is still a positive.

Upon reaching work, I told my colleague to draw my blood to we could do a blood HCG test. Got the results about an hour later, after I woke up from my lunch nap. Results – Not pregnant. I had a look again at the result paper about 30 mins later when I was much more awake (because I kinda don’t believe my results) and realised that HEY I READ THE RESULTS WRONGLY! MY HCG LEVEL WAS AT 103.2 miU/ml!

Initially, when I first read the results, my eyes immediately went to the “Not pregnant/menopausal: less than 5 miU/ml” instead of my actual results. So people, never try to read your results after you wake up from a nap or sleep.

And so over the next few days, I kept doing the urine test because I don’t believe I’m pregnant yet. So by doing this, it gave me assurance lah in a way.

Yup, so that’s how I found out I am pregnant! Revealed to our families a few days after because the husband was so eager, despite it being in the early stages.

Open Letter to a boy

Hey baby…
It’s 2014. Another calendar year.

A year back at this time – while you were backpacking – all I can think about was you.

You, you and well, you.

You left something with me. Your heart.

It wasn’t right to do so then but my heart feels otherwise.

Then I forced myself to forget you. But I couldn’t. I just… couldn’t.

You always creeped back into my mind somehow for all those months after that.

I had to really forced myself not to initiate a conversation because I know that once I start, it’ll be hard to stop.

During those months, I can’t even count the number of times I decided to drop what I have and just go with my heart.

It was countless. You didn’t know then, of course. 

You were my sunlight during those months of uncertainty. 

An uncertainty that was a no-brainer, for what was certain was all along in front of me. You.

I should’ve decided then. That’s one thing I regret. Not being with you earlier.
But now, a year on, and here we are.

It still feels so surreal.

Things just falls into place when you least expect it.

You’re the missing piece of my weird quirky life puzzle. You, my weird boy.

Here’s to many more years ahead.
Love you, baby.

We’re married!

Yay yay sudah kahwin! Loving my nikah outfit! Can reuse back – just need to make a different kain without the trail.

Photoshoot at Gardens by the Bay right after our nikah!

My first outfit for the sanding – in white!

My second outfit for the sanding – in red!

Thank you to my family members who made it all happen! 😘

And thank you too to his band of brothers and their wives who were part of our big day!

Our Solemnization highlights!

Final few days

Tent’s up. In-house dais almost completed – left the fresh flowers arrangement. Henna tonight. This is getting real.

Lounging on my bed now at 6.42am for the last time as a single lady. The next time I’m sleeping here, it’ll be married and with a big body sleeping right next to me! 😱 I’ll be sleeping over at my aunt’s from tonight onwards as my majlis is gonna be held there.

Prepped myself too – hair done at Karva (grey/purple/pink hair yo!), a treat by my cousin for the massage promo at Spa-B-y No-rfas-arie (which I don’t totally recommend at all), manicure & pedicure session to get nice and clean hands and feet (Groupon aje lah cukup! $18 with scrub ok what! 🤗) and lastly, sugared myself because I don’t have more money to spare to go to a professional except this time, I bought the paste from Carousell for $11 instead of making myself because it’s difficult to get the right consistency every time I make it. If you’re wondering how I tahan, well, I just did! My pain score even when a professional do is 10/10 damn pain so if I can do it myself, so can you babeh!.

The next update will prolly be in 🇨🇭! Itinerary was finally completed last week after months of procrastination. Whatever that can be paid for online via credit card, is paid for just so I don’t have to fork out much cash onsite. We’re going backpacking style! Although I gotta bring 1 cabin-size baggage because I can’t fit our food supplies in my bagpack/backpack. That baggage will later be used to carry our chocolate souveniers!

So that’s 2 more nights, let’s do it! ❤️

65 days!

Fuuuuh! Dengan cepatnya, lagi 65 hari! Yay yay!
Considering it’s 2 months away to the big day, I went from gear 2 to gear 4 for my wedding preps after putting it on hold for like ever.

I’ve emailed all the vendors that I’m liaising with – bridal, decor, mini dais decor, henna services, videographer and apek ice cream – and they’ve all replied me so that’s a good sign altho Ri.bbons.&.Ti.es did take a while to reply me (more than a month! Yikes! 😱) until I have to post on her IG pics. But yeah, that’s it for me. My parents are settling the rest!

The past few weeks, I’ve:

  1. Went to JB to get my baju nikah done (my aunt’s tailor at Jalan Tun Abdul Razak who is experienced with baju nikahs). Got to know that my kain is same with one of the BTBs, different colour tho. Her tailor might’ve bought it at the same Arab Street shop as me. 😂
  2. Collected my invitation cards from Marina Card Designs at Angsana. My parents anyhow just go and do the booking and told me to just liaise with Zetty via email. After they told me, I quickly googled to find reviews and there were quite a handful of bad reviews so I was kinda scared, but Alhamdulillah, all went fine. The cards were ready in less than 2 weeks! It was fast prolly because I just emailed them the designs and setakat print aje on their side.
  3. Did my directional signage and dulang tags. Left to print!
  4. Finally bought his barang dulang online. We realised on Monday that, shucksie, we haven’t bought them. So that Monday itself, both of us just online shopped as we are so malas to go out and walk around. Went Zalora, ordered and chop chop the items are safely in my hands (and his hands for my things) within 2 days (yes, that fast!) hahhaha. And both of us are definitely happy with our items!

However, one of the most important thing still haven’t do – register for my ROMM! Can you believe it!? The fiance keeps dragging it just because his dad is gonna be our kadi. Orang lain semua dah pergi interview kat ROMM and such eh. But he promised he is gonna get it done today. He better!!

One more left pending for the wedding is the 2nd day wedding itinerary. I need to sync and plan it out properly with the other couple to make sure it doesn’t clash at his side. One thing for sure is that it’s gonna be kecoh when it’s time to change to our 2nd outfit – but I guess us girls will change in 1 room and the two brothers can change in another room, right? To look at it positively, at least it will add to the “fun”! 🙂

And another left pending is my itinerary for Switzerland! Half-way done only and this fiance of mine is leaving all the planning up to me. Bagus lah jugak kan since I like to plan.

Whatever it is, I don’t wanna rush and wanna be totally zen on the week of my wedding, apart for the fitting and the henna night!

Last 2 mths, yay!

Status Quo

So in the past month….

  1. I finally switched to a new job in the private sector. FINALLY! Although, I truly miss my former colleagues! Got these gifts from them!
    Kate Spade Gifts
  2. Got myself a bike.
  3. Gotten a part-time job that gives good money per hour! Need the extra income, for sure.

  4. Driving up to JB every weekend for the fiancé to top-up fuel. And well, at the same time, make use of the opportunity to indulge in good nice food and watch movies too. I mean who doesn’t wanna pay S$6 for a weekend movie and about S$12/pax for nice food, right?
  5. Selected my bridal outfit from Versari! 3 outfits selected. Momster decided that she wanna make my nikah outfit, so that leaves 1 outfit for photoshoot after the nikah and 2 songket outfits for sanding. The last outfit was supposed to be a gown but unsatisfactory comments from some family members requested for a more “melayu” outfit so the second full songket outfit was selected in place of the gown. At least the 1st songket outfit is the modern twist on it so it’s not exactly the same.

    Versari outfits

  6. Have 2 new baby bunnies to care for, which are adorable cute, I must say. At this moment, I have yet to decide to put them up for adoption or keep them (I would have 5 bunnies if I keep these babies!)

    Bunny babies

  7. BTO is progressing really fast, currently building the highest floor – my floor! Word has it that key collection would start next year instead of the listed 2nd quarter of 2018. But whatever goes. If it’s meant to be ready by next year, it shall be.

All in all, life is just rolling as always, constantly moving. Some things happened the way I wanted it too, and some does not. It’s all in the books, whatever it may be.